Monday, May 23, 2011

just a Layout I did today

I thought I would scare you all by posting something.I have loaded the picture 4xs, let me try again.
Nope, well, here is a link.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

What I've learned

So I realize I haven't written in a long time, and have seriously contemplated just shutting this whole blog down.
We all know that life gets in the way, but that isn't why I haven't been writing. I've come to realize that my thoughts, however profound, probably do more damage in the cyber-world than good, if I actually write about my reality.
Maybe I'm just sick of only writing the good. My life is definitely not bad, but if I only write the things I want everyone to see I feel like I'm missing the whole story. I have been writing for me, and that was the point of this blog, so...I guess there might not be a point anymore?
Bottom line is, we all have bad days, we all get annoyed with people at times, we all have stupid things we deal with that would only be made more complicated by involving more people in the conversation. I really love my life, and I really want my kids and myself to know the real me and the rest just feels like a waste of time. If I told every person every detail I hope I would be truly understood, but alas this doesn't always happen.
I don't want my blog to be a dumping ground or a "yay, me! everything is perfect!" forum. I just want to feel what I feel, write what I want to, and learn as I go...and in the end I don't want that to draw any criticism or hurt. Better to just let it go.
By the way, nothing big happened to make me think this, so don't think it was you.

Monday, November 16, 2009

my latest LO

I love my yesterday today class from Ali Edwards at Big Picture scrapbooking.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Wow, its been a long time

I realize I haven't blogged for a long time. In my defense, I have tried to blog several times in the past few months and it wouldn't load my pictures.
I am taking way too many classes (sewing, scrap booking and cooking), online and in person, trying to get my house a little cleaner and just surviving being a wife and mother. The boys are good, the older two enjoying school and Grant learning how to destroy my house one room at a time.
I feel like I'm learning and growing and everyday I get to start all over and try a little harder. All in all I think that's what its all about. (BTW, I love that bumper sticker that says..."what if the hokey pokey is what its all about?")

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Same sketch, new look

Just thought I'd post another LO. This is one like Land of Nod before but new paper, and mirrored.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Lots to think about

I feel like my stomach is turning along with my head, trying to wrap my mind around many emotional situations in my life. I am trying to fight my feelings to shut people out and to want to run away. I am always amazed at how my kids change my mindset in every situation. The hard things I have to do, the people or things I don't want to face, are thrust in my path as I try to set the right example.
One of the things I am wrestling with is, in this Christian community I live in, some seem to think the best policy for handling conflict is to ignore it or to not tell it how it really is for fear of hurting someone. Maybe there is more hurt in the constant state of glossing over everything. Maybe its keeping us from having the relationships that would really make us better family members and people.
I also have been thinking about how hard it is to be open to criticism and change. When we are kids its hard to be chastised, but as adults we may automatically think the person telling us how to change is just plain wrong. I'm not saying we should all go out and criticize each other, but just be open to listening better. I think most of the time we know that our friends and family are trying to nudge us into the right kind of change. (And with a consensus you'll know that its not just one person picking on you). I hope I can be pliable and become the person I really want to be.
I also want to learn the art of forgiveness. I had thought lately that I had forgiven someone for doing something that really hurt. I had moved on, allowing this person back into my life on a personal level and then had them do the same thing to me again. This time I wanted to say something, hoping I could once again have this person as a friend, but I don't honestly think this person feels what they did was wrong, or could be done differently. So I go on, on guard, keeping this hurt in mind so I don't find myself here again and wondering if things will ever be good.

On another subject, summer is slipping away. We have been doing so much, I almost don't feel like I live at home, but I haven't been on vacation either. I really want some things in my life to come to a close, I really want to see a little into the future to know how to proceed. I wait for answers. I don't know how long I can endure this dull stress that follows me. I try to keep it at bay, try to enjoy things in the process, and hope I am learning from it all.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

I love PE6

I have been so busy lately I feel like I can't catch my breath. I am totally excited about Photoshop Elements 6 for Mac. It is so great in so many ways. Here is what I put together this morning when Grant woke me up too early.