Wednesday, April 14, 2010

What I've learned

So I realize I haven't written in a long time, and have seriously contemplated just shutting this whole blog down.
We all know that life gets in the way, but that isn't why I haven't been writing. I've come to realize that my thoughts, however profound, probably do more damage in the cyber-world than good, if I actually write about my reality.
Maybe I'm just sick of only writing the good. My life is definitely not bad, but if I only write the things I want everyone to see I feel like I'm missing the whole story. I have been writing for me, and that was the point of this blog, so...I guess there might not be a point anymore?
Bottom line is, we all have bad days, we all get annoyed with people at times, we all have stupid things we deal with that would only be made more complicated by involving more people in the conversation. I really love my life, and I really want my kids and myself to know the real me and the rest just feels like a waste of time. If I told every person every detail I hope I would be truly understood, but alas this doesn't always happen.
I don't want my blog to be a dumping ground or a "yay, me! everything is perfect!" forum. I just want to feel what I feel, write what I want to, and learn as I go...and in the end I don't want that to draw any criticism or hurt. Better to just let it go.
By the way, nothing big happened to make me think this, so don't think it was you.