Hardware Ranch

Today we took a sleigh ride pulled by two clydesdales at Hardware Ranch to see the elk. The ride was long, but it was a beautiful day and the kids had fun. I don't think I can do car rides anymore. Talk about contractions. Eli and Wyatt took the opportunity to fight in the back seat most of the time. "He's looking out my window" and "He started it!" and "Sit down and be quiet" where the most uttered phrases in our car. But, man, its nice to see signs of spring. We always start discussing all the things we want to do this summer when spring comes. We should be busy.

Lookin at the past

So this is what I did at Christmas, it took long enough to get the picture up! Now I'm trying to hurry and make the boys big-boy bed quilts and get another crib quilt done before the baby comes. Today I officially have 10 weeks left, but I'm most certainly hoping it will only be about 8. Sun is out, boys (including my husband) are outside playing (or fixing things), whatever you want to call it. Tonight Jason and I are going to the symphony. Pray I don't fall asleep.

Sunday game of Sorry

The sun has been out for the last several days, and we have been focusing on more family time. The boys still have uncontrollable energy, and I'm thinking of buying a treadmill and strapping them to it. We did go on a walk the other day, but as soon as the sun goes down it gets super cold. I think we are all hoping for spring too soon.

I don't know about this

I don't have anything really to say, but I know I need to write something for my own sanity.
Sometimes things seem harder than they probably are. Not every day was meant to be happy. I guess if we didn't have sad days, we wouldn't appreciate the really good ones.
I am tired of being a responsible-ish adult. I feel like I'm not really good at it, that no one cares, and that I'm failing. Its hard trying to do all the right things in your head, not knowing that you're making mistakes, and then realizing you were wrong, having to apologize, not knowing still how you could have corrected the situation at the time. My feelings get even more hurt when I had full intention of doing the right thing to begin with. Now, I realize I'm not perfect, that some of this is just part of learning, but now more than ever, I just want to run from all the situations I feel I'm not ready to deal with, and then I think, GROW UP, its just not that big of a deal.
I'll probably spend the rest of the day, about my chores, mulling over everything some more. Hopefully by the end, I'll gather up my courage and just go on.