Okay, so I can't believe its been 13 years since that picture was taken. I was a sophomore in high school. Its one of the only pics I like from high school. I've been scanning old photos lately. I keep having nightmares there is fire in my house, and instead of saving my kids, I tell Jason to go get them and I run for all my pictures and scrapbooks. Maybe I've been watching too much news about California.
Both boys costumes are done, I need to work on mine now, and get Wyatt feeling better. I've also been taking silly old wives tests online to see if it can predict whether I'm pregnant with a boy or a girl. Obviously I need to get back to the things I need to do. Is anyone else thinking about starting (or has) their Christmas shopping?

Party at my house

Yesterday I worked on Wyatt's Halloween costume all afternoon because he was supposed to have a party at school today. What would the most logical thing for his body to do? Get a fever, and lose his voice. No party, just oat bran for breakfast.
I have made the kids 3 recipes from that Deliciously Deceptive cookbook. So far so good. Butternut squash and sweet potatoes are getting into my kids somehow.

Thinking food, as always

The picture is from a jaunt to the U Natural History Museum with some of our friends back in Aug, but I thought it was now sesonally appropriate.

So I did go to the store this week and buy food that the baby in my stomach forced me to pick out. It included Chex Mix (no longer as fattening because they deleted the nuts.), brats, microwave meals (no preservatives), white bread, cream cheese, ice cream, tapioca pudding, Cheerios... anyway, a lot of carbs and fats. The amount of packaged goods was so out of the ordinary, that I went to Costco today and bought all veggies. I saw this book on Oprah a few weeks ago by Jessica Seinfeld (Jerry's wife) where you try to hide vegetables in food kids like so they don't know they are eating them. I plan on pureeing a lot of carrots, spinach, sweet potatoes and cauliflower this weekend. I am a deer widow anyway, I might as well. The book is called Deceptively Delicious, and I'll let you know how it works. The nice thing is, once the baby starts eating, it will all be purees anyway so I'll be on a roll hopefully.

to be or not to be

Safe, that is. Eli has been trying to wear Jason's motorcycle helmet everywhere. (We do not own a motorcycle anymore.) He really enjoys people trying to hit his head when its on. The problem is, it's so big for him he can't even walk straight. I just imagine it hurting his neck. So like a good mom, next time I find it off him, I will be hiding it.
Last night was an exciting one in our neighborhood. I guess there was a stabbing between a husband and wife across 10th east from us, and we had sirens, then 2 lifeflight helicopters land a 100 yards away. Jason and I couldn't sleep and ended up watching with some of the neighbors at the corner. When I came back, Martha Stewart was on at 2 am, so, how much fun is that?
So, I'm am setting out today, to buy something to eat for dinner. The goals are: no complaints from the kids, leftovers, and probably not as healthy as usual. I might be in the mood for lasagna.

"I'm in my imagination"

I'm glad he is "in his imagination" because, as for me, I cannot find mine. At this point I can barely remember when life was fun. I've been in the house, trying to just survive for the past week. I thought I was starting to feel better, but this general depressing feeling has decended on our home, and unlike most times, the only idea I have for getting out of it is to just hold on. I realize things change, get better, I just know I'll miss all the fun of fall by the time I come out of it.
Okay enough of this depressing stuff. Maybe I'll go watch Scooby-doo with Wyatt. He seems good.
P.S. Eli is having so much fun with Legos lately. I'm happy to see it. Ahh... creativity.

The kids have been sick today, so since I didn't have to drive around I've tried to clean the house. I am so inept at cleaning/ decluttering. I don't understand how to have stuff that gets put in the right place and how to stop buying/ recieving things I don't want or need. Our whole family needs some sanity and structure. Why am I scared to get rid of things? I just might need it someday. Hum. I need help. I could turn into one of those ladies you see on tv. Yuck. Its like when they show you what you'll look like in 20 years and I won't be able to blame the kids.
Yesterday I went to spin class, which felt good at the time, but its taking my muscles way too long to recover.
Last night Jason and I took the kids for a walk, well they were on their tricycles. I think it tired them out, which is probably why they are sick today. They've been sleeping a lot. I suggested a walk because I thought Jason and I could talk and decompress, but those bigwheels are so loud going over pavement, and we were so worried about crossing every street that came up, it turned out to not relax me at all.
The general local and national news is really getting me down, so I won't be watching it until my emtions are a little more in control.
Gotta go check on dinner. Meatloaf and mashed potatoes. Yum.

baby appointment

So I didn't sleep well at all last night because I was so worried about seeing a new doctor today. I made the appointment early which also never helps me sleep. We also know that our insurance won't be covering this kid, so I was worried about the money. We get to the office and find out the doctor doesn't take my insurance at all. Maybe it was the pregnancy, but I don't like feeling like I don't have the right password or whatever to be treated, and I started to cry. Nice. I get embarrassed when I can't control this. Anyway, we decided to just pay out of pocket to at least see if the baby was okay (and that I wasn't having twins, phew). The doctor knew the situation and didn't have us pay anything. I couldn't believe it. I don't know what I think about health care in this country, I want it to change, but I don't want the government to intervene so the quaility of health care goes down. My general doctor usually delivers my babies, but she had a baby last week so I've got a few months to be on my own. I made next appointment at the same clinic, so I know I'm covered there. All of this also makes me upset that my husbands company can't just buy us good insurance. It would go a long way to job satisfaction if you felt your family was taken care of.

new cut, new outlook

I don't know what it is about getting my haircut, but it sure makes me feel better. This is even saying my morning sickness can be helped with a little psychological " I look cute" talk. This picture is taken with my iMac on board camera. Fun to not have to set everything up, but not the best picture in the world.
I'm getting excited about Halloween costumes. We have decided to be the Avatar characters ( http://www.nick.com/shows/avatar/index.jhtml ). Eli will be Aang, I will be Katara, Wyatt will be Sokka. Eli, of course, thinks he can help me sew it all. Love how if your little and you try something you think you can do it all.
Today the list of mom things to do is the same as every day. I really get sick of the kitchen. I'm actually just very good at the making of messes, and find no joy in cleaning them up. The weather this weekend is supposed to be horrible again, so I might just call in sick to chores and take the kids to the canyon or the park. After I convince Wyatt once again that school is fun.